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what we portray [Feb. 18th, 2010|10:47 am]
crybran22
Through my insecurities I see yours
Her smell on your skin leads me to my conclusion
Each conquest is a different mask hiding the same poor self image
Each mechanical thrust, a false proof of worth
My stomach churns as I turn my back on your indiscretions
This ache is from understanding and parades around as jealousy
Both of us must prove ourselves
as a friend, hopelessly devoted
as a lover, unmistakably accomplished
What we pride ourselves in...to a fault
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fucking bitch [Dec. 11th, 2009|02:44 am]
crybran22
traitor, benidict arnold, backstabbing, power hungry, psycho, boring, transparant, lying rat! i hope you are satisfied. i know how hard it was for you to come forth... after it wouldn't affect you anymore. some people dont want to be associated with me any more... fuck you fuck you fuck you how dare you. how dare you ignore the good and focus on the mistakes. you think you are doing good, service to those that have lost their path... thank you but i don't need a savior... you are not my messiah i don't need a martyr. work on yourself or maybe your just so dull you have nothing better to do but start drama. how vengeful and low... the concern is false the repercussions are very much real.

no matter what each individual is perfect
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2 years later and im back [Nov. 2nd, 2009|09:45 pm]
crybran22
its been so long you precious journal...

im back!
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too late to write [May. 12th, 2007|02:23 am]
crybran22
so it seems that i got my groove back. yes i had taken a breif vow of celebecy and then fucked dudes(sucks) and they were mostly straight(boring). now i realize the vag is the only thing that is worth taking time for. endless smiles are born in the shadows of our former selves.
this discovery has planted a seed of hope. a term that I seldomly use.
im in trouble.
a kind of trouble that seems to be so true
my nature, contiuing every day
can you handle that?

i hope so.
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sleater mother fucking-kinney!!! [Aug. 11th, 2006|09:53 pm]
crybran22
bitter sweet. andrew and I are currently in our hostle in portland cause we are going to see sleater-kinney this time tomorrow!!! im soooooo fucking happy, thrilled, wet, every feeling that inclueds wonderful and glorious. this is the last show... its so final. im glad we are here to see them. so there are two people in our room that came to see sleater-kinney for both shows and they came all the way from london england. and we also have gary our other roomate from england. so it kinda sounds like we went to england. we have yet to meet our other roomie i wonder if where she is from? talk to you later.
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drunk and happy [Jul. 13th, 2006|10:12 pm]
crybran22
[Current Mood |drunkdrunk]

honest and I lie

nice and I will be mean

selfish and altruistic

happy and sad

complete

appreciation of the nature of duality

will lead to where i want to be
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i cried [Jun. 29th, 2006|09:04 pm]
crybran22
someone i know posted this and im not sure that my response will change any minds.

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You call me "Cracker", "Honkey", "Whitey" and you think it's OK.

But when I call you, nigger, Kike, Towelhead, Sand-nigger, Camel Jockey, Beaner, Gook, or Chink you call me a racist.

You say that whites commit a lot of violence against you, so why are the ghettos the most dangerous places to live

You have the United Negro College Fund.
You have Martin Luther King Day.
You have Black History Month.
You have Cesar Chavez Day.
You have Yom Hashoah
You have Ma'uled Al-Nabi
You have the NAACP.
You have BET



If we had WET(white entertainment television) we'd be racists.



If we had a White Pride Day you would call us racists.




If we had white history month, we'd be racists.



If we had an organization for only whites to "advance" our lives, we'd be racists.




If we had a college fund that only gave white students scholarships, you know we'd be racists.



In the Million Man March, you believed that you were marching for your race and rights. If we marched for our race and rights, you would call us racists.





You are proud to be black, brown, yellow and orange, and you're not afraid to announce it. But when we announce our white pride, you call us racists.



You rob us, carjack us, and shoot at us.
But, when a white police officer shoots a black gang member or beats up a black drug-dealer running from the law and posing a threat to society, you call him
a racist.





I am white.
I am proud.




But, you call me a racist.

Why is it that only whites can be racists?


Repost if you agree
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I can answer every question on this post.


First off I would like to outline the history of the UNITED STATES OF AMERICA.

The WHITE man came to an INHABITED land and conducted biological warfare on the native people by giving them small pox and other nasty dieses.

In this "land of the free" we had what was called
slavery. That pushed an entire community back, socially, economically, and educationally. Why? because they were not WHITE.

After slavery there was intense segregation until 1964( and let me assure you it did not end then).

So I am sure that no on would argue that white people happed to have an advantage above every one else.

A racist comment will always be negative no matter who it is directed tward.

I know that because of what I have just outlined anyone can see that the impact that it would have to call
a white person a cracker ( in referece to the whip cracking on a slaves back) is no were near the same as calling a minority by anything racist.


to answer a few questions:


Why is the ghetto so dangerous. well i would have to say it would probably be the drugs in the ghetto. May I remind everyone that :Urban neighborhoods are grappling with legions of homeless crack addicts. Thousands of young black men are serving long prison sentences for selling cocaine - a drug that
was virtually unobtainable in black neighborhoods before members of the CIA's army brought it into South-Central in the 1980s at bargain-basement prices.


Since even before 1944 the United Negro College fund has been helping those students that socially are not given the same chances in life as others.
maybe because schools were segregated until 1954 when brown v. board of education that ended segration.

our history books outline white european americans more than any minority. that is why white people dont need a "month"

Cesar Chaves is the only latino to ever have a "day" as for martin luther king i think he is the only black person to have a "day"
i believe that several white people have thier own days; lincoln, george washington, even columbus.


Yom Hashoah is to remind everyone of the holacaust. the US has its 9/11 (doesnt even compare to the holacaust)

Ma'uled Al-Nabi mohamads birthday- um did we forget that all you white people forced jesus' bday(christmas) on all of the native people you conqured?

The NAACP well if white peoples rights were as violated as african americans then maybe they would need an association to advance thier civil rights, that is
not the case

EVERY MONTH WHITE HISTORY IS TAUGHT IN SCHOOLS. FEBUARY GIVES PEOPLE A CHANCE TO SEE PART OF AMERICAN HISTORY
HAS BEEN LEFT OUT


THE OPPRESSED CAN NOT OPPRESS. I DO BELIEVE THAT THE SOCIAL IMPACT OF A WHITE PERSON BEING A RACIST TO A MINORITY IS WHAT MAKES A DIFFERENCE. WHITE PEOPLE ARE THE
MOST REVIERED THING TO BE IN THE U.S. AND CAN NOT BE BUMPED OFF THE TOP OF THE SOCIAL LADDER BECAUSE OF AN OPPRESSED PERSONS COMMENTS OR ACTIONS.


MINORITIES ARE PROUD BECAUSE WHITE PEOPLE CONVINCES THEM IT WAS BAD TO BE ANYTHING BUT WHITE


RACE IS ONLY AN ILLUSION. SOMEONE MADE IT UP BECAUSE OF THE AMOUNT OF MELLENIN IN THE SKIN BECAUSE OF THE LOCATION OF WERE YOUR ANCESTORS WERE FROM.
GENETICALLY WE ARE A HUMAN RACE WE ARE ALL THE SAME. NO RACE= NO RACSIM
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Maybe a little too late [Mar. 12th, 2006|11:58 pm]
crybran22
I only want to be friends with you. My only hope is that of friendship and no farther beyond that. It took me until today to honestly say this. I know you will read this and I hope you that you do think its meant for you. It was all up to me and it finally happened. it took a completely different situation to help me with this. fucking enlightenment at the end of a crazy situation.
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I can only gain friends [Mar. 12th, 2006|09:31 pm]
crybran22
I fucked up. I am going to live with this as if it were exactly what I wanted. Then I will be happy. I went to san felipe for the weekend. reminded of the world full of negative that awaits me at home. throughout the entirety of the trip i had a suspicious stomach ache. I finally realized that when people dont want help i should respect that. instead of trying to help when you arent welcome to. the result of such foolishness will only hurt me in the end. i gain and learn alot from my experiences, now my lesson is to let people go. Maybe its my turn to be Angie.

I believe that I needed to be that deceitful and selfish in my life to better understand the miss understood. To know how low I could get to understand just how much I hated myself at the time. It was unfortunate that others got hurt. I also believe that it is imperative to understand that it takes two people to make a bad situation. I am willing to believe that had I had self worth i would not have done what I did. I deserve just as much respect as anyone else no more no less.

we are all entitled to fucking up within our lifetime.

If everyone was judged only on the worst thing they have ever done EVERYONE would be horrible.

this is my affirmation for today.
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(no subject) [Dec. 29th, 2005|10:59 am]
crybran22
[Current Mood |highhigh]

im readging choke again. I forgot how chuck palahniuk writes, so it was refreshing not to read the same syntax that most modern novelists are bond to. Trainspotting is on an dheroine attics are grooooossssss eww he went in the toliet. Renton was just so fab. well i will write about my fun and exciting times later. so i can watch junkies to get of junk.
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